Numb is the New Deep

AHHH

2006-06-30T16:58:20Z

I can't remember how to do LJ cuts. Disregard the last entry until I fix it.

Yo Ho, Yo Ho, A Pirate's Life for Me!

2006-06-30T16:55:18Z

I think just about every person on livejournal that's as obsessed as me probably has the same subject line.

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Orlando Bloom is so adorable in Pirates!!!!!!!!!!!!
All of you other people can have Johnny Depp....

I've pre-ordered my tickets for the new movie next Friday!!
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In other news, work is boring as watching grass grow, but at least I'm making money...?

bran_muffin90 @ 2006-05-12T20:42:00

2006-05-13T03:48:21Z

It's time for the all important vote!

What should Breanne wear to the Band Banquet? TOMORROW!!!! MAY 19th!!!!!!!!!

A) http://i13.photobucket.com/albums/a294/bran_muffin90/IMG_2811.jpg

B) http://i13.photobucket.com/albums/a294/bran_muffin90/IMG_2805.jpg

C) http://i13.photobucket.com/albums/a294/bran_muffin90/IMG_2807.jpg

D) http://i13.photobucket.com/albums/a294/bran_muffin90/IMG_2809.jpg

Disclaimers: Dress A has been worn once 3 months ago. Dress B might be for homecoming or something along those lines. Dress C has been worn once to promotion. Dress D might be worn at my flute recital in a month. If none of these are good, I'm considering a skirt or something, but I really want to wear one of these! I have other dresses, but I want to wait to wear those.

Yes, it's late notice. I really need to decide. HELP!!!!!!!!

bran_muffin90 @ 2006-05-09T17:54:00

2006-05-10T00:55:36Z

What if I was good to you, what if you were good to me
What if I could hold you till I feel you move inside of me
What if it was paradise, what if we were symphonies
What if I gave all my life to find some way to stand beside you

OH AND........HEYYYY

Guess what?

Remember how nobody used to appreciate all the pictures I took?

Well, all of my "annoyingness"? It got me Historian/Public Relations positions on Band Council!

Take that! Vindication at last.

SOMEONE HELP ME!

2006-03-19T02:19:39Z

I NEED A LIVEJOURNAL OVERHAUL!! HELP!

bran_muffin90 @ 2005-12-02T18:28:00

2005-12-03T01:30:07Z

Collages = Love

P.S.--Comment if you see yourself. Or if you love something about the pictures. Or something. Whatev. =]
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take a seat / take your life / plot it out in black and white

2005-11-29T00:01:03Z

How about some more pictures, my loves? SURE!!

Halloween!!

(Yeah...I don't know why some of them are sideways. DEAL WITH IT! ) =]

Homecoming (&nicole looks asian...?)

Peter Piper = )

&...some pictures i like

the end ................for now

the long-awaited photos!

2005-11-20T20:28:25Z

I have finally managed to figure out the whole lj-cut thing. ( with a little help from nicole =] )

more pictures laterrrrr!!

bran_muffin90 @ 2005-11-20T13:10:00

2005-11-20T20:17:08Z

TESTING!!!

the end of a good thing is always bittersweet

2005-11-20T18:48:18Z

"and maybe, just maybe, you'll realize why you're here..."

and i have realized why i joined this amazing program.
it's really not about the awards that are hung on the wall, even though you wish for that superior the whole time in the stands.

these awards are not the memories you hold on to forever--it's the ones about hanging out with 125 people who absolutely love the same thing as you.
it's the ones about the 116 degree days in July that you just wanted to die.
the ones about the california trip and the bus rides over playing mafia and lauging so hard your insides hurt.
the ones about the intense rehearsal at cali, and the spaghetti factory afterward.
the ones about the day at disneyland--convincing people to ride space mountain, riding splash mountain and freezing your butt off, and walking forever to see the fireworks finally.
the ones about the march-a-thons that were 8 hours of pure sweat and dirt covering you.
the ones about the rehearsals where you set everything down to run laps, came back and wished you had shut your mouth in the first place.
the ones about that "one time at band camp" where you first realized what this whole experience might be like.
the ones about the first time you laid eyes on this music and thought "how am i ever going to memorize this?!"
the ones about the sectionals where you talked with 14 of your closest friends for an hour.
the ones about after every show, singing your heart out because you want to remember for others.
the ones about crying and hugging old and new friends after the brass played.
the ones about the last season for the seniors you grew to love and cherish.
the ones about that feeling when you marched off that field--knowing you put your heart, soul, and sweat out there for everyone.

it doesn't seem like this should be the end... such an abrupt cutoff to something we've worked so long and hard for...but i guess that's how all good things end. thank you to everyone who made my first real year in this band absolutely amazing; i couldn't have asked for a better group of people to see every morning at 5:45.

Let's hope I might finally figure out this whole picture-posting thing...hmm... When i finally do, I'll post, like 350293842 pictures. Until then, someone please help me!

thoughts race through my mind &you're at the center...

2005-11-09T02:32:00Z

Something is wrong with the sum of us
That I can’t seem to erase
How can I be the only one
Without a smile on my face

Well now, you’re laughing out loud
At just the thought of being alive
And I was wondering
Could I just be you tonight

You show your pain like it really hurts
And I can’t even start to feel mine
Well, I’m standing in place
With my head first and I shake, I shake
I see your progress stretched out for miles and miles

You’re laughing out loud
At just the thought of being alive, yeah
And I was wondering
Could I just be you tonight

This is the sound that I make
These are the words I chose
Somehow the right thing to say
Just won’t come out
Just won’t come out

And you’re laughing out loud
At the thought of being alive
And I was wondering
Could I just be you tonight

And I was wondering
Could I just be you tonight

so maybe i try too hard, but it's all because of this desire...

2005-11-03T23:43:44Z

my fifth day at Disneyland this year tomorrow & i'm still eager/thrilled/completely wound up.

especially since i'll be spending it with some of my most favorite people.

this is random, but i don't know what else to put, except that the RCC competiton is saturday too...excitement all around this weekend.

be back sunday afternoon

p.s. if anyone wants to teach me how to put pictures on here from disneyland, homecoming, peter piper, or anything for that matter, i would love them FOREVER.<3

&every word you never said echoes down that empty hallway

2005-10-23T21:14:45Z

my calves hurt yesterday...but it was worth it.
we were awesome and the COMPANY FRONT was spectacular! (=
we know how we did--i know i felt some personal validation from a great performance.
the next step is just stepping it up for cali.
22 hours with some of my most favorite people.
NAU BOA was one of the best days ever.

Staying home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it
I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
--john mayer

Disneyland!!

2005-10-08T15:58:18Z

see you friday @ 10am for practice...

because I'M GOING TO DISNEYLAND

me+lauren+megan = tons of fun

be back thursday night.

bran_muffin90 @ 2005-08-26T17:29:00

2005-08-27T00:43:49Z

okay...

it's been a rough week and...

now i am officially upset. i'll be getting up on my pedestal now, so brace yourselves.

joe actually does hate me, which i didn't think was true. obviously i was right that joe has changed--since the last time i talked to him, he actually wanted to talk to me...hmmm.

nicole really hates me, which i figured must have been true.

obviously joe doesn't appreciate my "picture taking". like all of the scrapbooks i've made. thanks for that one.

joe doesn't need to diss nicole goodwin like that. OR ME.
i know that nicole gets plenty in exchange for all she does--but she doesn't do anything for me anymore, which is inconsiderate. joe says that she calls people for him, except i didn't even know he was here. i guess i should be glad that i didn't know joe was here. he doesn't care anyway.

i'm really glad to know that i got annoying to nicole and joe. and that joe DID NOT WANT TO SEE ME. he admitted that, so now i'm really upset. it's great to know that he has more fun without me.

if you don't like me, fine. tell it to my face. or call me or something. don't just post it on the internet like this. it makes me upset. now i'm to the point of tears and it's a horrible feeling.
maybe if he wants to stop "lj fighting" he should GIVE ME A CALL. just maybe once in oh, 4 years.

i'm glad that joe and nicole will go live happily together. have fun without me. i know you already do. </3

bran_muffin90 @ 2005-08-15T16:33:00

2005-08-15T23:38:15Z

i love how while joe was here, nobody bothered or wanted or cared to tell me. that was nice.

god, i feel so out of the loop anymore. none of the people that were my friends ever care to talk to me anymore. this is not fun.

well, i'm sick now and not feeling so great anyway about the whole joe being here thing, so i think i'll just go finish some homework and read a little.

thanks to all of you who do care. i love you more than words could express. <3

</3 ughhhh.

all of my thoughts

2005-07-31T17:02:12Z

today is my mom's birthday.

i packed for band camp all day yesterday.

finished my dot book yesterday, and didn't have to call anyone because i didn't get confused. :o) (which means i probably screwed the whole entire thing up so bad beyond repair. but i tried. ehhhhh...)

i can't believe next week we'll be getting ready to go to school the next day. how did this summer get away from me so quickly?? it's not like i didn't do ANYTHING, but i still wish i could have gotten a little more done...you know?

i also had a really great conversation with nicole goodwin over AIM. we talked about friends. and how some of them just seemed to dissolve over the year(s). i felt really left out after one of my friends was visiting and i didn't even know about it. :o( that wasn't fun at all. but, thanks to nicole for making me feel a little better.

i think i might make a special appearance at nicole's party to give her her birthday/disneyland present and card. but then i'm coming home for some last-minute packing and stuff and my mommy's birthday. =)

that's it for now i guess

bran_muffin90 @ 2005-07-21T20:10:00

2005-07-22T03:14:24Z

i'm glad that things might be finally falling into place...

you know what?

i can't wait for band camp. :o)

yeaaaaaaaahhhh!

aahh!

2005-05-24T02:05:31Z

So......tomorrow's the last day of school.

GOOD THINGS

+ i made marching band!

+ i got a 96% on my math final

+ i get an A in math

+ i'm done w/ bethea's class (UNTIL HONORS CHEM?!?! AAHH!)

+ i only have one final tomorrow (spanish)

+ i went to altadena today.

+ i talked w/ mr. norris

+ i got to see thayer today. :o) i cried afterwards. :o(

BAD THINGS

- i basically failed my HCP final

- it was hotter than an oven in altadena today. broken A/C. grrrr.

- i'm gonna miss thayer tonnnnns. stupid wisconsin.

- tomorrow is my last day of spanish w/ dibs.

- i'm gonna miss mrs. price so much

- i'm gonna miss mr. dibble so much

- i'm gonna miss Lindsey sooooo much!!

- i'm worried i won't get an A in HCP after all this

LOTS TO SAY. but i can't remember any of it now. Maybe i'll finish this later...? Who knows.

P.S. Remember how Minnie and Ozzie died? :o( Well, I got 2 dogs. :o)

Gabby and Roxy <3

I'm gonna make a separate entry for them. SOMEONE TELL ME HOW TO PUT STUPID PICTURES ON THIS THING!

Reflecting

2005-05-01T04:35:51Z

This entry will probably be edited about a million times, but I want to keep adding things to it as they come to me...

THINGS I WANT TO SAY ABOUT FRESHMAN YEAR

I have realized who my real friends are. They aren't the ones you just talk to sometimes. Not the ones you see every once in a while. They are, however, the ones that make an attempt to talk to you. They are the ones that have stuck by you. They leave an impression on you. They care about you, genuinely care about you. They never ignore you when you need them. They care about you and your life. They console you when you need it, and I've needed it this year.
I have realized that I need to chill out a little bit. Getting good grades as I have done this year can be done--but in a simpler way. I don't need to stress out as much.
I have realized that mistakes I make can be fixed later. I don't need to worry about petty things.
I have realized that sometimes, people just won't like me. No matter what I do, say, or feel, some people just aren't going to find me funny, nice, etc. There's almost nothing that I can do about it--I have no control over other people's choices.
I have realized that I need to learn to speak up. Some people are opinionated--and that's fine. When they cross the line where their opinions/beliefs offend me, I need to tell them. Letting people step on me like that isn't okay for my self-esteem, etc. They can have their own opinions without rubbing me the wrong way (too much).
I have realized that High School isn't like I thought it would be. Possibly because of Hollywood's spin on things, I just never saw DV as being how it is. I can't say it isn't difficult sometimes, but I don't see it as preparation for college yet. The work we have hasn't gotten harder than it was last year (for the most part) and sometimes that frightens me!!!
I have realized that I miss some of my teachers last year. Thayer was awesome, although some anger management sessions would not have been so bad on some days. Mrs. Paul really did care about us--even if she didn't always show it. Wilbur was a good teacher and I want to have him for math now!! I miss Mr. Norris in band, but sometimes it is a little bit of relief.
I have realized that I will miss teachers from this year. Thye will be there next year, so no worries there. Mrs. Price (although a little on the, ahem, left sometimes) will absolutely be missed. The humor she could bring without getting off topic is often rare. What can I say about DIBBLE?!?! Awesome. The best. It tears me up inside to know that he has to leave teaching, which, deep down, he really does love. Even if he is going to throw us over the balcony, blow us up, or put us in meat-grinders, he loves each of us and appreciates the things we do for him. Many good times in that class.

MORE LATER

WOW THIS IS LONG ENOUGH!!! I'll spare you of my monotony now and the dullness will end.

Comment if you agree/disagree with anything. Or if you want to talk. Or if you want to say anything else. Whatever.

john mayer

2005-04-02T18:51:10Z

lately the only thing that's been keeping me even slighly sane is music

john mayer is love <3

got the any given thursday DVD...so incredibly awesome!!!!!!

if you have not bought any of his CDs or DVDs so far...let me advise that you get one of them right now!!

with all of this hoopla and lunacy in the world right now, i can't tell you how awesome it is to be able to put on headphones and listen to his music. it's kind of like a little haven away from everything.

so i updated now....and it's a little less sad than my last entry. :o( althought i'm still a tad (well, i lied. a lot) depressed. it's just not fair that minnie and ozzie would go in the time frame of 2 months. it's tough.

Rainbow Bridge

2005-03-19T16:09:25Z

"Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge. When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable. All the animals that had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind. They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster. You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart. Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together...."

Got this from http://www.westierescueca.com/rainbow.htm and it seemed just perfect for my mood right now.

I really hope Rainbow Bridge does exist. Minnie and Ozzie both truely deserve it.

I love my puppies and will miss them forever. :-(

"I can't be sure that this state of mind, is not of my own design
I wish there was an over the counter test, for loneliness.
For loneliness like this"

-Something's Missing

bran_muffin90 @ 2005-03-17T17:50:00

2005-03-18T00:55:14Z

spring breaks are the worst.

i think this one is probably on the same level of "fun" as the spring break that i got my tonsils out and threw up blood. yipee.

i just feel like i need to go away. really far away.

i need to be rid of all of the bad things that are going on right now.

because there are enough of them.

it's just not fair that all of these things have to happen.....i wish i could be 5 years old again when the only thing i really had to worry about is whether my mom packed me pudding in my lunch. or if i could swing at recess.

too many tears...not fun.

i know i sound really suicidal and everything but i promise i'm not to that point. i'm just overly depressed and sad. :o(

HAPPY SPRING BREAK!!!!!!!!!!! CAN'T WAIT FOR SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sarcasm all around...

tons to say but so little time

2005-02-23T16:37:17Z

well i'll just sum everything i've done in the past week up in one sentence i think.........

joe and maddie came to visit this past weekend
and we went to like 10 gazillion restaurants before we found one with a short enough wait
and then we ended up going to Belle Italia or something like that and we ate there
and it was fun
and i got cute pictures of all of us
and we went out to lunch with maddie on saturday to Eddie Chan's which i love
and we went to the mall and i bought my mom a box of mints but that's it
and then we went to,ummm, nowhere after that i guess
and on sunday we went to nicole's
and had a party for joe
and me and nikki hid from The Ring because we were scared
and then i started coughing bad and my mom had to come bring me my inhaler and stuff which was not fun
and then me and nikki and michele talked about life and futures and careers and stuff
and maddie and ethan made an "appearance"
and then she went home the next day
and then on monday we did nothing (i think)
and then we went to IHOP on tuesday
and nikki was really late
and we took some more pictures which are cute, too
and then we went to school at 10:40
and we waited around and talked and stuff
and then we went to class
and that's about it!!!

THAT IS ONE LOOOOOOOOOONG SENTENCE

see you all at salsa night if i go??

<3 breanne

p.s. -- love my new icon, right?? john mayer is love!!!!!!

ozzie...

2005-01-21T22:51:32Z

can someone please tell me how to put pictures on here, please?

i want to put some of my pictures from ozzie on here.

:o)

that's my icon--ozzie.

my love. <3

god, how i miss him so much...

life's too short...it's not fair

it's been how long--not even 2 days??

this weight on my heart better not last any longer.

i can't handle it.

ok i'm not going to start crying.

i hope.

have a good weekend i guess.

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